Mother Line

Find me on the motherline, the space between who she was and I.  

The plane where I call down the line finds me on my motherline.

My mother’s mother is also mine; she took the steps and walked the line. 

But how can I know the motherline when I don’t know the path to mine?

Who is that woman in the shadows? And who is the one who brought forth that fire?

Is she my Madonna? Is she my temple? Is she my prison?

Who is that on the mother line? Who is she inside of me?

Who is she in my powerhouse [mitochondrial]  DNA?

The one who made the choice of me.

The one who decided who I would be, what I would look like, and how I would think, the one who informed me before the one who bore me.

Oh mother, oh mother, come to

me, find me here on the mother line,

speak to me clearly, claim me, and say that “you are mine.”

Desperately seeking, ravenous for that feeling.

Tell me, tell me, find me, find me, please don’t forsake me

and leave me here alone on the mother line.

Some people seek to know their family, their ilk, and their kin,

to know the people who they call bloodline.

But me, I know that my depth, my core, my essence

is somewhere on the seafloor, looking for my motherline.

A fault line that plunges deeper than a sea trench, the darkness of the abyss, the blackness of the womb.

The womb that called me forth from my motherline. 

And who is the mother of my mother of my mother?

If not the one who rules the seas,

the depths of the waters, and the sweet ocean breeze?

I exist in both the dark and light, along the motherline. 

Oh mother, oh mother, where are you?

I’m here looking for something to prove my worth to you.

Show me your face, strip away the shadows.

Speak to me in song in the dreamscape.

Call to me from the place where you were born.

Don’t be a mystery, oh mother, oh mother, find me on my motherline.

The border of my soul.

Find me inside of a dark and tortured psyche.

Place me where I can be made whole.

Take me to the motherline.

Let the folds of time never separate us,

Once we are together here on the mother line.